I have only ever had sexual encounters with men as Amanda. People used to say dressing feminine was all about me being in denial about being gay so I took the bull by the horns so to say and went to one of the sexual establishments I frequent on a non-trans all male day in male clothes. As soon as I entered I felt it was totally wrong and was almost physically sick – I just had to get out of the place. I think it was probably that incident that confirmed what I had probably really known all along and that it wasn’t about being gay at all. After numerous sessions with a clinical psychologist I was referred to the G.I.C. as transgender and fully intend to transition, though it will probably some time off before I get to where I want to be yet. It really is all down to how an individual feels – we kind of instinctively know and feel what is right for us and it is best for us to follow those feelings whatever they may be.
