Yep, married here and in the closet.
Ironically my favourite panties are ones that the wife gave to me as I was working away from home for an extended period. If I was going to have a wank, I could use those and think of her.
What she doesn’t know is that I now regularly wear them at home when she’s out and enjoy surfing the net looking at crossdressers, shemales & femboys etc and fantasising about pleasuring men with my mouth.